I KNOW YOU SECRETLY READ THIS!

do you know tt it feels so good just to see darling this word??
seriously melts my heart & forget all those idiot things.

all i need is a person who will stay by my side, not leaving me.
why is it so hard to achieve this?
i have you , there for me. but i just can't read your mind.
i don't know what you're thinking. you're so good to me at times.
but sometimes u treat me lyk shit... how am i able to put all my
heart and soul into this r/s?
can you please assure me tt you won't leave me again? can you?
hais
we have sucha strong r/s once. i've not forget abt us. the good memories will not be faded.
it has been printed at the back of my mind. i want those days back. but do you?
i seriously wanna break down sometimes. looking at those photos , which is so sweet. hais

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today was damn fucking fun!
went out w eddie & edwin.
to Orchard road huh. crap around in train, then reached orchard station.
while walking out of e station, there was this underpass.
people are giving out flyers, and guess what? a guy came up to me and gave me a flyer.
He said " 谢谢korkor" and said it twice! omg i was like stunned. wth. crazy FAT man.
then walked around orchard. outside not too far still got ppl give flyers.
then a old lady came up to me again and gave me a flyer. then keep saying tt it's free ,
got chinese and english language, smth like tt. damn she scare me to the wits man! fuck
idiot flyer givers . scare the hell out of me. damn.
found takashimaya, went in and find phiton, the necklace. edwin say he wanna buy.
then so ex, he nvr buy lo. went to eat kfc.
went to find Topman outlet in there. can't find. then walked around, finding.
called kenbe , then she told us the places which have topman. thanks so much!
went to wisma atria and saw topman. damn, so hotpink de shirt. went to shaw house's topman.
don't have the outlet! stupid. went to marina square's topman. didn't see any hotpink too.disappointed.... then bought 3 shirts. grey, black and purple one. quite nice lo. $39 only.
it's around 5plus then we took mrt . i went down to sunplaza w eddie to slack around at mos. legs v tired then went back home after slacking uh.
thanks for much for today, really had so much fun!
hehehehes
gotta do my homework now! tatas!

edit - gonna study after sch from monday onwards! who wanna mug tgt!

Labels: is your heart there w me?

training was fun todayy?
saw her coming in late! so chioo..
hmm she slap my back then said " eee u so wet! " sound so wrong right!
cute to e maximum la her face..
hmm she's so sick today okay~ wanna rape ppl.
then had intensive training today, had train-ed on spiking. i whack damn hard la.
hehehehehehs.
today was e 3rd month w jamie? think so.

went to eat after training, then met up w sharon& yvonne.
they playing bball w ngor? hmmm. slack-ed till 4 plus.
went to see a pretty face, then she gimme gangster attitude. fuck
then simming gg back home le, accompany him. went inside foodfare & chatted awhile.
heartache...her leg swallon, black black. felt hurt & happy?

sitting at the usual place,everything didn't changed,
except for the people.looking around the place,
juz made me think back of the past. 166days more?
to october 8. sighh. a 6 months wait is rather long but
true love is worth waiting yeah? a smile from you is all
i needed to be happy . everything seems to be falling in place,
a new beginning , a new feeling. some things may change definitely,
but i seriously hope "some" things will not be chnaged. i hope so.

*serious backache* needed some rest. tatas!

HAHAS ,
today chemistry lesson so fun.
principal went to my class, then the tcher so nervous!
p.e lesson, did my 5 items
1.standing broad jump - 230cm (5 points)
2.sit&reach - 49cm (5points)
3.inclined -pull - 41(5points)
4.shuttle run - 9.4sec(5points)
5.situp - 49 (5points)
6.2.4km run - 11min15secs (4points) DAMN
TOTAL:29/30 GOLD!
hahas shiok
maths lesson , got test again. so hard.

Went for investiture after sch, cheryl is damn creative! chee!
so lame lo , rehearse 2 time only...training next.
now my back still numb numb one. fuck so pain.dunno "who" did it to me...
don't care anymore.

study hard okay! saw u in mac w those boys again.
they not studying one lo.play psp...
hate them,,

tired, juz ate the damn nice hokkien mee. LOVED it.
gotta go watch tv! tatas~

there's this song which i really liked, really meaningful,The Climb.miley cyrus
i wonder why i'm still so happy to see you in sch.
i'll still smile so happily despite the things we've gone thru.
probably it's the unforgettable memories ?
you juz brightens my day w your smile.
although u may do things tt i don't really like?
i'm in no position to say anything now. HAHAS it's alright~

once in a lifetime, chance to even be alive, shouldn't we treasure ?
live life happily.

someone's birthday in a months' time, wish her happy always.
READ MORE NEWSPAPER (while gg to chinese class)!

PE tml, 5 items. hope i really can do lots of inclined pull ups! HAHAS

i realise my dream juz now was damn good! hahahas past time pleasures

gotta run ! byes~

what a day for me, i've achieve my target!
good student huh! hmm it's e 22th today. you know what is it.
but today seems lyk another school day for me, still looks the same.
anyw, happy 3rd b .
hmm wasn't really happy today but at least i did not do anything wrong.

see-ing you w so much of boys doesn't hurt? put yourself in my shoes.
think , you'll understand how i would feel in tt point of time.
and seriously what u want me to say? i don't get it man.
You, leading a normal life now, while me, still in the past.
i don't think i should think abt the past anymore.
people must move on, leaving the past alone, espcially sad one.
sighh

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I've finally realised something. i've changed. like what *miss _ _ _* said.
i don't listen in class, i quarrel w tchers, i'm late for classes,
i'm rude, i do all sorts of things tt are crazy. why do i changed so much
in these past 2 weeks? is it bcos of you? i hope not.
i'm so gonna f*** all these bad habits away!
i'm gonna live life my own way, happily.
why care so much? future is mine, not other's.
i must thank so many ppl in this change in me.
i must thank the tchers who scolded me damn lot, ones who cared for me,
ones who asked abt me, the people so hurt me so much, the ones who are always
by my side.
i'm slowly forgetting abt you in my life, seriously.
i don't feel empty when you're not there, not msging me, not concerning abt me.
i've adapt this damn bloody new lifestyle, i juz need my friends! miss them!
i'm so gonna be a good student tml. not making any tcher angry again.

So! This is e brand new me!

BYES the old me!

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today was a boring day? i guess..
actually wanna go out but nowhere to go!
tired, decided to play comp.

life is miserable i guess,
isn't that good as what yoo think.
i must really stop all these crap & buck up.
i seriously suck. suck to e max.
really gonna do smth to salvage this

thanks for being there for me when i'm down, my friends!
probable gg out is a good option to vent all my anger out.
get down to earth, have a bright tomorrow.

r/s is not a must, so i'm so gonna fuck all tt away, and live life happily!

tatas~

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ORAL!
damn hard, i keep speaking in english. die alr.
went for training , then went to eat at kfc, then back to training.
so tired, then saw her coming in, was quite happy? i thought.
then i checked my fone, no msgs. AGAIN. only got a unknown call.
i call back the person he so pervert. i faster kap his fone. damn scary.
went to eat at ahmei, w seniors , eddie &all. simming faster recover!
trained home , emo freakk!

-MUST STUDY HARD! next week stay back revison, nobody accompany me!

buck up man! stop thinking of all those!
study hard! train hard! all these things
are seriously too much for me. can't take it
anymore. i wished i was outta here.
thinking of so much things.wished for so much things
NONE came true.whats the point then?
must as well transfer to another sch &start everything anew.
this sch is pathetic. except for e friends i've made of cos!

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SCARY day for me! eeeeeeeeeee

om didn't call me up today, heng . but confirm will call me up de.
hmm today had english as first period, never naughty! hahahs
maths, quiet still, didn't make trouble for tcher.
chinese, fun la! had the oral practice then keep laughing at milfred..
joker, then got one girl, sibei horny. (she's my horny bitch) SHARON.
Had recess, then went for physics class, good boy again. chemistry class,
no problem. overall today was behaving really good :) .

After sch,didn't go for training, go for STP, stupid sia. wasted.
go republic poly listen to talk...had a short break, got food.
chicken drumsticks, brownies, and nuggets. OMG, can't believe i'm seeing this.
RACHEL TAN WEI ZHEN IS SUCH A DISGRACE MAN! she actually took a plastic
bag and takeaway 10 over chicken drumsticks, and refilled her own water bottle w
milktea... all the ppl was looking at her. it's sucha disgrace wearing the same uniform
as her, couldn't believe tt she would do sucha thing lo. Is she that hungry so she's just
plain greedy, the things aren't expensive nor she's damn poor to even buy them.
probably she's super duper uber greedy bahs. i look down on her man, still dare call
friends to help her take milktea to pour into her bottle. couldn't believe my eyes.
"see no evil" ... i just walked away w shame. lucky the teachers don't know what she did.
or else she will be in hot soup man.

hmm then go back sch for training. sian la no boring, rather not play match.
whole match not even a spike, plus in e end lose. need kap $ to buy drink for other team.
stupid i go training so short also must give. damn con.

-tomorrow chinese oral exam..no preparation,hope i'll get thru tml bahss

seems like things are getting better day by day, no more ignorings. :)
i like it this way, really do. hope you'll feel better soon?
speedy recovery! mwah! msg to me yeah! no msg leyy~
all my emotions are coming back! i love you~
hope you'll have time for revison tgt. WORK HARD!

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Simply another exciting day for me,

morning wokeup, ready to see mrRaj alr.
we went to see him, then told us to stand in front of upper sec.
MrsChew asked me alot of things, why i changed so much etc...
i didn't know the answer to it... probably i really changed w/o me knowing.
went back to english class after a incident report. stiffs w ms goh? sorry .
P.e! ran 2.4km , damn so dulan . dunno which idiot call me run another round
after i finished everything... make me so tired! btw the timing was horrible..
11min17secs..
after recess, got the greenweek? the bazaar. went to e canteen and saw her.
purposely didn't wanna look at her, but couldn't bear it anymore? i turned and looked :)
seems pervert isn't it. i know. then i saw lesley in a class. knew u were inside, purposely
went pass there, juz to see you.hmm then, chemistry lesson.
CLD lesson, christy&gang came to our class, played the batam games, called me out,
was rather shy , then had to let my mates guess my word using actiions.
school's out!

went out the school, waited so long for no reason, slack-ed.
simming was waiting for jamie's bus to come.(he wanted to peii her)
then wait wait. saw you again, so emo, alone. can't bear it anymore,
went up to you juz to say hello? seems lyk strangers leyy sadds.
ate at ahmei cafe. roti prata!lol

HERE COMES THE EXCITING PART!
i was accompanying eddie they all , in e staircase. then i was playing w e lighter.
was only playing w e handle of the door, suddenly a guard came in. saw a
guy smoking (which i dont wanna mention). then the guard go after everything
is fine. then he felt the handle was "warm" then asked who burned the handle.
i admitted , stupid me. was held back by him then followed to his office.
alot security guards came. questioned me, called the school,handed my particulars
over. think tml really jialat le. told my grandma the whole matter and scolded me....

hmm,purposely trying to avoid,didn't wanna think of you
is juz too tired for me. saying tt i dont love u anymore is a
lie. looking at your backview, i would want to go up to u,
but there's something stopping me, probably we're more lyk
strangers than friends, or rather a couple. i hate this feeling.
hate it so much. i couldn't bear all this alone. i need you,
i want to look u in your eyes and say i love you once more.

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wow! what a interesting day for me!
kick start w art lesson!
really engrossed in making my cup! i've got a gun handle! mdm tay say nice !
then followed by maths...boring .
Humanities. mr siva keep shoot me..learned star approach. PIECE OF CAKE!
english? ms agnes goh wasn't here.Ms bulldog took us.
lastly, chinese. practice oral w simming. had so much fun!sadds,
whole day not even a msg from anyone...BORINGGGGGGGGG.
After school,waited for eddie &simming for lunch b4 gg to house meeting.
damn they so long..waited,went up to find them. was doing corrections for mstan.
all went to eat nearby school.went back to sch? guess what?
all late, raj called us up, scoldings... told us off, call us cut hair.
i got a stupid hairstyle in e end... regretted.needa meet raj tml at 7:10?
hais confirm sit outside general office or smth... napfa test tml... must chiong!
hmms...

guess everything has changed totally,
no msg, no loves.
guess you're too stress or smth,
shall not bother you anymore.
i've changed too i guess.

tatas~

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School? as usual, BORING. TIRED of everything in school
what's the point of studying in school? hais. fone was "quiet"
today. no msges. really listening to maths tcher today. wanna do well
in exam. hmm didn't quarrel w any tcher today? impressive huh?!
hmm chinese tcher really knock some sense into me. i can't behave
lyk this the whole time. have to really know when is the time for play and jokes.
thanks? can't believe i say this...

-i understand ONE damn thing abt this sch, there are molesters...
anyhow hit ppl de "nehneh"... quite fun though.Playing marh!



looking at her post, seems lyk she didn't need anybody else.
maybe it's just fate. happy moments really only lasted for a short time.
but i hope she doesn't really mean it....why love so deeply
when one day you'll get hurt? but seriously. i love her a lot.
probably everything is a dream, a dream which seems so real.
everytime i see you,there's still something , something which separates us.

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hmmm. school was boring?
chinese class, scolded by tcher,say i rude to her,
result? class journal la!
damn boring lo, tired of schooling.
tired of everything....

princess, today you're treating me weird?
though u gave me e cream which was so touching,
but u seem lyk treating me lyk ....
quite sad? at bus stop,talk to me lyk ahlian?
hmm speechless. TOTALLY speechless
really lyk aunty leyy. no mood

Labels: No more battles please..i can't take anymore

HEYY HEYY!
2nd post everybody!

hais today was a boring day man! !#!@$#$#%^%^&*!@#$@$@
ROT at home...wake up in e morning , wash up, then no breakfast!
Had to buy them myself, LAZY!! didn't ate breakfast in result.
around 11plus, told my grandma to cook lunch, then she attitude.
suan liao, wait till 1 plus then eat... all day long, i was busy sleeping .
Nothing to do marhs! was waiting for your msg to come actually.
hmmmmm. BORING!
okay la! i don't play game liao . i want you.

Don't be mad okay? my mind was filled w you the whole day.
Thinking&thinking, all about my princess...
The thought of the past good moments we share, just make me smile.
You're unique , one in a million. NEVER to leave you, ever again.
Seal everyday w kisses & huggs!

Off to watch tv! tatas readers!
-Nites princess,luv ya♥ mwah

First post everybody!
Had a hard time figuring out how to make this blog.
thanks brother for your help. i didn't really do much.

hmm, today? wake up damn early. TIRED. went to view all the posts by her.
had really broke my barrier. thought so much. i miss her. miss her so much.
then packed my bag , out for SENTOSA! Today was a good day for sun-tannin.
tan till my whole body red red... wonder how am i able to carry my bag on monday.
OH YA! stupid me. played with e escalator, cut my toe, bleed alot.PAIN. hais tired leyy
after a long day at sentosa, saw crazy people throwing friends into the sea. damn funni,
but was really fun i thought? Went to bugis, emo... bought a bumudas.
By the way, thanks ruiyang &edwin for e accompany.

thanks for letting me stay by your side all these while?
really liked the feelin though. stay happy okay?
never want da see you sadd again.
thinking of the past, juz make me love you even more
iloveyou , i really do.

REALLY tired i guess?
shall end here tatas!'

-JunMING